I wrote this the other night. I think it describes well what I am going through.
Tower of Blocks
I am a tower of blocks
Standing strong and tall
For all the world to see
Or at least I once was
I am a tower of blocks
Steady and firm
A support to all around
But not anymore
I am a tower of blocks
Fallen and scared
Scattered across the ground
No longer tall and strong
I am a tower of blocks
Tentative and new
Slowly, block by block
Building toward the sky
I am a tower of blocks
Weak where I once was strong
A glimmer of hope for the future
Fighting against the fear of the past
I am a tower of blocks
Now looking for support
Searching within myself
For strength I cannot find
I am a tower of blocks
Shaky, but a tower still
Building slowly, but ever up
Striving to be grand again
I am a tower of blocks
Blown down by a cruel wind
Fallen and scattered once more
Ever weary of the blowing storm
I am a tower of blocks
Looking again for strength
Searching all around
Learning to trust in something more
I am a tower of blocks
Timid and small
Grasping for hope and courage
Building upon others support
I am tower of blocks
No longer tall and strong
But beautiful and true
In my own special way
I am a tower of blocks
Longing for what once was
But learning to accept change
Learning to see the truth
I am a tower of blocks
Strong in a new way
Strong in a way many don't understand
Strong because of my understanding
I am a tower of blocks
Ever smaller than before
But grounded in what matters
Grounded in the truth
I am a tower of blocks
A tower that will often fall
But one that will always rebuild
And be stronger for it
I am a tower of blocks
From which I can see new sights
Sights once overlooked
From way up where I used to be
I am a tower of blocks
Shabby and dull to some
But strong and sure inside
Because of my many falls
I am a tower of blocks
Sometimes scared for what will come
Often afraid of the next big wind
But still lined with hope for the next ray of light
I am a tower of blocks
Standing strong and small
But better for all I've weathered
For all the world to see